Ohya, I've deleted my previous post about thing that less important to you-guys-know :) so sorry for those disturbing things...
Back to topic! Explaining the title(as always) and it's all about stupidity. I was stupid ya knaw! Act like I am the one that right and he always wrong. Actually, I never mean to do that, it just came out. Stupid, huh?
Betapa egoisnya seorang me, melarang him buat ngelakuin hal-hal yang ternyata gue lakuin. Dan gue gak mau disalahin. Fix! SuperSelfish>:o I hate myself for doing something that hurt others.
Okay, tapi gak semua kesalahan bisa dilimpahin gitu aja ke gue kan? Semua pasti ada akarnya, ada penyebabnya. Dan itulah yang sampe sekarang masih dicari tahu. Seberapa 'bermasalah' kah akar dari semua ini? Sampe-sampe bisa kaya gini..
Do I cry? Yes, ofcourse!! And as I remember, this is the hardest part of my life. Crying for people that I love. Why do I cry? Why do I cry for them? Why do I cry for my stupidity? Why? Am I crazy?
I don't know what should I do...:( I called him, the first thing that came to my head is 'talk to him!!' But the fact? I'm not that strong! Denger suaranya aja udah bisa lemes, gak sanggup ngomong apa-apa. Bener-bener ngeblank. So, is that the meaning of love?